The Graduate School and University Center of The City University of New York
Embracing Conflict and Contradiction as a Path to Awareness
Abstract
dc:description.abstract<p>The focus of this autoethnographic dissertation is the exploration of habitus and how it consciously and unconsciously influences our perceptions, emotions, values, and actions. I describe this dissertation as an autoethnography to highlight my subjective approach to research and to dispel any claims of objectivity. Through my experiences as a daughter, mother, administrator, and teacher-educator, I explore three internal conflicts, highlighted by intense emotional reactions, and deconstruct how my past and present contexts inform my values, beliefs, and actions. In each chapter, I describe several events that led to a greater understanding of my emotional responses and how I adapted my practices to better support my family, students, and staff. This work is informed by a bricolage of theoretical frameworks that help structure and illuminate the experiences discussed in each chapter. I include methods and methodologies that support my interpretation and reinterpretation of past and present experiences and utilize event-oriented inquiry to analyze specific moments by answering the following questions: <em>What happened? Why did it happen?</em> and, <em>What more is there?</em> Authentic Inquiry is presented as an overarching framework and guides the emergent and contingent nature of this work.</p>
Degree
thesis:*- Name thesis:degree_name
- Doctor of Philosophy
- Level thesis:degree_level
- Doctoral
- Discipline thesis:degree_discipline
- Urban Education
- Grantor
- The Graduate School and University Center of The City University of New York
- Year dc:date.available
- 2021
Author and committee
dc:creator, dc:contributor.*- Author dc:creator
-
- Abreu, JoAnn Rintel
- Advisor dc:contributor.advisor
-
- Konstantinos Alexakos
- Committee members dc:contributor.committeemember
-
- David Bloomfield
- Deborah Shanley
Subjects
dc:subject × 8Identifiers
dc:identifier.*- Repository record dc:identifier
- https://academicworks.cuny.edu/gc_etds/4139
- OAI identifier oai:identifier
- oai:academicworks.cuny.edu:gc_etds-5198