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name: On Becoming Myself: a Longitudinal, Multimodal Autoethnography on the Racial Identity Experience of a Multicultural Black American Woman (with Mixed-Race Ancestry) Living Through the Myth of a Colorblind “Post-Racial” Era by E. Natasha L. Smith
description: This dissertation explores some of the most polarizing topics of our time—race, culture, identity, politics, and the pressing need for advancements in higher education—with a confidence and courage shaped by lived experience, academic insight, and a deep commitment to truth. On Becoming Myself invites readers to engage with these complex issues through the lens of a multicultural Black American woman as she journeys through evolving stages of racial identity, confronting the myth of a “post-racial” society and the ongoing consequences of historically embedded inequities. Blending autobiography with scholarly analysis, theory and cultural context, this autoethnographic work traverses time, capturing the author’s transformation from early experiences shaped by colorblind socialization and social conformity to a nuanced self-understanding of identity and belonging across social and cultural divides. The dissertation follows William Cross’s Nigrescence model as a framework, revealing how identity is continuously evolving through societal structures, historical legacies, and personal revelations. It highlights the urgent need for a clearer understanding of widely misunderstood concepts, some embraced uncritically for their surface-level appeal, and others rejected or misrepresented because they are perceived negatively at first glance. In both cases, the absence of a deeper understanding produces unintended consequences that hinder societal progress and perpetuate division rather than unity. Reflecting the diversity of Black identity, On Becoming Myself draws from the author’s Chicagoan roots and the distinct perspectives of Gen Z to present a multilayered narrative that embraces experiential, geographic, and generational diversity. Integrating social media, music, spoken audio, video, and other multimodal forms, including digital storytelling, visual imagery, and interactive online elements, this work resonates with the values of a digital generation, connecting deeply …
abstract: This dissertation explores some of the most polarizing topics of our time—race, culture, identity, politics, and the pressing need for advancements in higher education—with a confidence and courage shaped by lived experience, academic insight, and a deep commitment to truth. On Becoming Myself invites readers to engage with these complex issues through the lens of a multicultural Black American woman as she journeys through evolving stages of racial identity, confronting the myth of a “post-racial” society and the ongoing consequences of historically embedded inequities. Blending autobiography with scholarly analysis, theory and cultural context, this autoethnographic work traverses time, capturing the author’s transformation from early experiences shaped by colorblind socialization and social conformity to a nuanced self-understanding of identity and belonging across social and cultural divides. The dissertation follows William Cross’s Nigrescence model as a framework, revealing how identity is continuously evolving through societal structures, historical legacies, and personal revelations. It highlights the urgent need for a clearer understanding of widely misunderstood concepts, some embraced uncritically for their surface-level appeal, and others rejected or misrepresented because they are perceived negatively at first glance. In both cases, the absence of a deeper understanding produces unintended consequences that hinder societal progress and perpetuate division rather than unity. Reflecting the diversity of Black identity, On Becoming Myself draws from the author’s Chicagoan roots and the distinct perspectives of Gen Z to present a multilayered narrative that embraces experiential, geographic, and generational diversity. Integrating social media, music, spoken audio, video, and other multimodal forms, including digital storytelling, visual imagery, and interactive online elements, this work resonates with the values of a digital generation, connecting deeply …
author: Smith, E. Natasha L.
keywords: Racial Identity, Black American Woman, Autobiography, African American Studies, Ethnic Studies, Race, Ethnicity and Post-Colonial Studies, Women's Studies
date published: 2026-01-01T08:00:00Z
date modified: 2026-07-24T00:54:19Z
provider: Andrews University
publisher: Networked Digital Library of Theses and Dissertations
type: WebPage
source organization: Andrews University